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family.","meta_box":{"show_notes":"","transcript_url":"https:\/\/transcript.familylifetoday.com\/fl2008-10-17.pdf","transcript_content":"<p>\n\t\t\t\t<strong>Dennis Apple:<\/strong> He was grieving terribly but, as a family member, he was trying to suck it up.\u00a0 He didn't want us to feel worse than we were.\u00a0 So it was as though we're kind of hiding our grief from each other right under our own household.\u00a0 But he was grieving silently, and I would find out later that he would be with the kids from the church or other groups he was in, he could find someone to talk to there, but it was hard for him because he didn't perhaps want to see his mother or me cry anymore than what we were already.\n\t\t\t<\/p>\n\t\t\t<p>\n\t\t\t\tThis is FamilyLife Today for Friday, October 17th.\u00a0 Our host is the president of FamilyLife, Dennis Rainey, and I'm Bob Lepine.\u00a0 It's a big job for a parent to process your own grief after the loss of a child and to help a son or a daughter process his or her grief as well.\u00a0 Stay tuned.\n\t\t\t<\/p>\n\t\t\t<p>\n\t\t\t\tAnd welcome to FamilyLife Today, thanks for joining us.\u00a0 I don't know that you and I have ever talked about this.\u00a0 When I was in the eighth grade, I was in class one morning, and there was a note came into my room, and they asked me to come down to the principal's office, and I was thinking, \"I wonder what I've done.\"\u00a0 Actually, I was thinking, \"I wonder which of all of the things I've done they've found out about.\"\n\t\t\t<\/p>\n\t\t\t<p>\n\t\t\t\t<strong>Dennis Rainey:<\/strong> Found out, yeah.\n\t\t\t<\/p>\n\t\t\t<p>\n\t\t\t\t<strong>Bob:<\/strong> Well, I walked into the principal's office, and there was a police officer there, and I thought, \"Well, I don't think I've done anything this bad.\"\u00a0 But they asked me to sit down, and the police officer was the one who turned to me and said, \"We've just received news that your sister has been killed in a car accident.\"\u00a0 \n\t\t\t<\/p>\n\t\t\t<p>\n\t\t\t\tMy sister was nine years older than I was.\u00a0 She and her husband were living in Illinois, and I had not been particularly close to her.\u00a0 The nine-year age difference kind of meant we were in two different worlds, but I remember going home and meeting my mom in the living room as my mom as in tears at the sudden, traumatic loss of her oldest child, her daughter.\n\t\t\t<\/p>\n\t\t\t<p>\n\t\t\t\tI remember going up to Illinois for the funeral and the days that followed and kind of watching my parents process the grief of all of that \u2013 not really understanding the full depth of it but knowing that they had experienced something that has got to be one of the hardest things any family, any parents, can experience.\n\t\t\t<\/p>\n\t\t\t<p>\n\t\t\t\t<strong>Dennis Rainey:<\/strong> You're talking about grief, and I don't think the Christian community, as a whole, does a real good job of recognizing grief, understanding it, and then knowing how to relate to people who are going through it. \n\t\t\t<\/p>\n\t\t\t<p>\n\t\t\t\tIf anyone ought to be able to do that, it ought to be those who represent Jesus Christ and God because we have, in our hands, the truth of Scripture that brings hope to a grieving soul, to someone who has lost a brother, a sister, a child, and our guest on today's broadcast, Dennis Apple, knows a little about the subject we're speaking of here.\u00a0 Dennis, welcome to FamilyLife Today.\n\t\t\t<\/p>\n\t\t\t<p>\n\t\t\t\t<strong>Dennis Apple:<\/strong> Thank you.\n\t\t\t<\/p>\n\t\t\t<p>\n\t\t\t\t<strong>Dennis Rainey:<\/strong> Dennis is a pastor at College Church of the Nazarene in Olathe, Kansas.\u00a0 He and his wife, Beulah, have two sons, Andrew and Denny, and as we've been listening to this week, they lost a son, Denny, suddenly to an unexplained cause of death.\u00a0 They were getting ready to go on a ski trip, and he'd been sick with mononucleosis but ended up finding it difficult to breathe the night before, and you got up the next day when you were going to go on the ski trip, and you were shocked to find your son dead.\n\t\t\t<\/p>\n\t\t\t<p>\n\t\t\t\t<strong>Dennis Apple:<\/strong> That's right.\n\t\t\t<\/p>\n\t\t\t<p>\n\t\t\t\t<strong>Dennis Rainey:<\/strong> And then went through the process of beginning to recover in your marriage and your family from that death.\n\t\t\t<\/p>\n\t\t\t<p>\n\t\t\t\t<strong>Bob:<\/strong> Dennis, how old was your younger son, Andy, when this happened?\n\t\t\t<\/p>\n\t\t\t<p>\n\t\t\t\t<strong>Dennis Apple:<\/strong> Andy was two and a half years younger than his brother, and he was about 16 years old.\n\t\t\t<\/p>\n\t\t\t<p>\n\t\t\t\t<strong>Bob:<\/strong> So he's in high school?\n\t\t\t<\/p>\n\t\t\t<p>\n\t\t\t\t<strong>Dennis Apple:<\/strong> Yes, mm-hm.\n\t\t\t<\/p>\n\t\t\t<p>\n\t\t\t\t<strong>Bob:<\/strong> And this is right before the family is going off on a ski trip in February, so I guess Andy was already at school when you found his brother had passed on.\u00a0 How did Andy get the news?\n\t\t\t<\/p>\n\t\t\t<p>\n\t\t\t\t<strong>Dennis Apple:<\/strong> Well, you're right, I had taken Andrew to the school and, you know, a couple of minutes away and back home and so when this all happened, then, my brother, who was living with us, I sent him on to the school to get Andy.\n\t\t\t<\/p>\n\t\t\t<p>\n\t\t\t\tAnd Andy, I'm sure, has an experience similar to yours, Bob, you know, he'll never forget that.\u00a0 He has recounted that story to me, wondering why he was being picked out of school.\u00a0 He had just arrived there just a few minutes before, and then taken back home, and then to be faced with this news that he never in his wildest dreams had ever received that his brother had died.\n\t\t\t<\/p>\n\t\t\t<p>\n\t\t\t\t<strong>Bob:<\/strong> Were Andy and Denny close?\n\t\t\t<\/p>\n\t\t\t<p>\n\t\t\t\t<strong>Dennis Apple:<\/strong> Oh, yeah.\u00a0 Andy \u2013 as a matter of fact, I remember him saying to me, \"Oh, Dad, when we lost Denny, I lost my best friend\" \u2013 very close.\n\t\t\t<\/p>\n\t\t\t<p>\n\t\t\t\t<strong>Dennis Rainey:<\/strong> Had they talked and planned about things they were going to do together as brothers?\n\t\t\t<\/p>\n\t\t\t<p>\n\t\t\t\t<strong>Dennis Apple:<\/strong> Oh, yeah, yeah.\u00a0 They had, and loved to ski together and were competitive against one another on the ski slopes, and, of course, I loved, as a dad, to be with them and watch that happen.\n\t\t\t<\/p>\n\t\t\t<p>\n\t\t\t\tAs a matter of fact, I remember a ski trip that Andy had just a few weeks later with the kids from the church, and he came home with a sad face, and he said, \"You know, I made a wonderful jump today\" and he said, \"on the way home I thought to myself, 'I've got to tell Denny about this,' and then the next thought was, 'He's not there.'\"\n\t\t\t<\/p>\n\t\t\t<p>\n\t\t\t\t<strong>Bob:<\/strong> You were just a few hours from having found your son dead on the sofa when your other son came home from school.\u00a0 Do you remember that first encounter with Andy that morning?\u00a0 Was he in tears?\u00a0 Was he in shock?\u00a0 What do you remember?\n\t\t\t<\/p>\n\t\t\t<p>\n\t\t\t\t<strong>Dennis Apple:<\/strong> You're going to laugh at this, and I look back on it, and I can tell this now, but Denny had a truck.\u00a0 He had a truck and had some clothes that his younger brother wanted, and it shows how things don't really sink in, but I remember him coming into the kitchen, and he said, \"Okay, now can I have my brother's truck?\"\n\t\t\t<\/p>\n\t\t\t<p>\n\t\t\t\t<strong>Bob:<\/strong> That was his first comment?\n\t\t\t<\/p>\n\t\t\t<p>\n\t\t\t\t<strong>Dennis Apple:<\/strong> [laughing] It wasn't his first comment but, you know, he came home \u2013 you're in such shock, you don't \u2013 it really hasn't sunk in, but he came in, and I looked at him, and my first impulse was, I just want to slap him.\n\t\t\t<\/p>\n\t\t\t<p>\n\t\t\t\t<strong>Bob:<\/strong> Yeah.\n\t\t\t<\/p>\n\t\t\t<p>\n\t\t\t\t<strong>Dennis Apple:<\/strong> We're all in shock and anger and all kinds of emotions were all over the map, and I looked at him, and he had on his brother's leather jacket, and he said, \"Do I get the keys to his truck, too?\" \n\t\t\t<\/p>\n\t\t\t<p>\n\t\t\t\tI just wanted to say, \"Don't you know what has happened here?\"\u00a0 And, looking back, there's all kinds of silly things come out of those early moments when we were in such shock, and he may not even remember it now, but I remember it very well, because it just stunned me, you know, I thought it's not even registering with him.\u00a0 He doesn't even know.\u00a0 He doesn't realize the shock is so out of this world that he just \u2013 on one level maybe he knew, but another level, he thought, \"Oh, yeah, now I get his truck and clothes.\"\n\t\t\t<\/p>\n\t\t\t<p>\n\t\t\t\t<strong>Dennis Rainey:<\/strong> Dennis, we spoke earlier of the impact that a death of a child has on a marriage.\u00a0 When a child dies, there is also an impact on a family.\u00a0 That family's identity takes a direct hit because your family was reduced by 25 percent.\n\t\t\t<\/p>\n\t\t\t<p>\n\t\t\t\t<strong>Dennis Apple:<\/strong> Yes.\n\t\t\t<\/p>\n\t\t\t<p>\n\t\t\t\t<strong>Dennis Rainey:<\/strong> You know, a vital, living person that was a part of making memories \u2013 how did that impact Andrew moving forward as he continued on in school and also your relationship with him \u2013 did it go through some ups and downs like your relationship did with your wife?\n\t\t\t<\/p>\n\t\t\t<p>\n\t\t\t\t<strong>Dennis Apple:<\/strong> Yes, it really did.\u00a0 Andrew is a very bright boy.\u00a0 He just graduated here a few years ago from an Ivy League school, but that first year he was a student, as a matter of fact at Nashville at Vanderbilt.\u00a0 He had been an exchange student in France.\u00a0 He left in July and didn't get back until the following January.\u00a0 But then he started, then, that following year, went to Vanderbilt, and I'll never forget the day when he called me there in Kansas City, \"Dad, come and get me.\u00a0 I'm sick.\"\n\t\t\t<\/p>\n\t\t\t<p>\n\t\t\t\tWell, I went to get him and, sure enough, he was sick.\u00a0 He was down so far, and I think that, looking back, his status was such that they would say he just had not really dealt with his brother's death.\u00a0 He would have what some counselors would call post-traumatic stress syndrome and \u2013 disorder \u2013 and so he was in a bad way. \n\t\t\t<\/p>\n\t\t\t<p>\n\t\t\t\tAnd, actually, I had to pull him out of his first year at Vanderbilt and bring him back home.\u00a0 I'll tell you, that was one of the worst days of my life when I had to pack up everything \u2013 he was drawing straight A's, and yet he just came to the place where everything ground to a halt, and I had to take a van to Kansas City and drive down to Nashville, get him, pack him up, and my wife and brought him back to Kansas City to Olathe.\u00a0 It was one of the worst days of my life.\u00a0 I thought, \"I've lost one son, now I feel like I'm losing the other.\"\n\t\t\t<\/p>\n\t\t\t<p>\n\t\t\t\t<strong>Bob:<\/strong> Prior to that, had you seen him grieve?\u00a0 Because the way you describe it with, \"Gee, do I get the truck now?\"\u00a0 It sounds like he kind of went right on without really feeling it, and you and your wife are both under this crushing weight of grief.\u00a0 Was he feeling any of that or showing any of it?\n\t\t\t<\/p>\n\t\t\t<p>\n\t\t\t\t<strong>Dennis Apple:<\/strong> He was, and it revealed, there is one piece that he has in the book, a poem that he has, and the poem starts, \"The last time I cried was the day my brother died.\"\u00a0 He was grieving terribly but, again, like a lot of guys, I think, as a family member, he was trying to suck it up.\u00a0 He didn't want us to feel worse than we were.\n\t\t\t<\/p>\n\t\t\t<p>\n\t\t\t\tSo it was as though we were kind of hiding our grief from each other right under our own household.\u00a0 And I \u2013 looking, and I've talked to other family members, and a lot of times guys are the way \u2013 many times girls and women are more up front with their grief, but he was grieving silently, and I would find out later that he would be with the kids from the church or other groups he was in that he could find someone to talk to there.\u00a0 But he didn't \u2013 he just \u2013 it was hard for him because he didn't, perhaps, want to see his mother or me cry anymore than what we were already.\n\t\t\t<\/p>\n\t\t\t<p>\n\t\t\t\t<strong>Bob:<\/strong> You know, I was 14 when my sister died.\u00a0 She was 23, so, again, there's this nine-year difference between the two of us.\u00a0 It's not like Andy and Denny, who were two years apart and were brothers.\u00a0 My sister and I were nine years apart and didn't really have a tight relationship.\u00a0 But I do remember feeling a sense of responsibility, as a child, to protect and care for my parents.\u00a0 I remember coming home and thinking, \"I need to help comfort my mom,\" and I remember being in Illinois where the funeral was going to take place and feeling like I needed to step in and help with the arrangements for the funeral almost like I had to take charge because I could tell instinctively my parents aren't operating at peak, and so it was, like, \"Well, I better step up and do something here.\"\n\t\t\t<\/p>\n\t\t\t<p>\n\t\t\t\t<strong>Dennis Rainey:<\/strong> I want to ask you this question, Bob, and then, Dennis, I want you to comment on it as well.\u00a0 Bob, did you ever go through a period of time after your sister's death where you resented what that did to your family because of how it created chaos, the unstable emotions of grief and watching your parents go through this and trying to fix them?\u00a0 Did you ever express that anger that you hear people express towards God that this had occurred?\n\t\t\t<\/p>\n\t\t\t<p>\n\t\t\t\t<strong>Bob:<\/strong> Yeah, this may sound callous, and I don't mean for it to, but my oldest sister and my parents had had a somewhat turbulent relationship.\u00a0 She had been rebellious and had disobeyed Mom and Dad.\u00a0 In fact, I remember the day I came home from school, and my mom said, \"Well, your sister got married today.\"\u00a0 We didn't go to the wedding.\u00a0 I mean, it was that kind of an estranged relationship.\n\t\t\t<\/p>\n\t\t\t<p>\n\t\t\t\tSo rather than feeling resentment, there was a sense in which I felt relief that that chapter of turbulence had an ending to it.\u00a0 Now, you can feel a little guilty feeling a sense of relief that that's over, but, no, that was the dominant feeling, was it had actually settled some issues and brought some peace.\n\t\t\t<\/p>\n\t\t\t<p>\n\t\t\t\t<strong>Dennis Rainey:<\/strong> What about your family, Dennis, with your son, Andy?\u00a0 Did he ever express any anger about how this impacted him and his family?\n\t\t\t<\/p>\n\t\t\t<p>\n\t\t\t\t<strong>Dennis Apple:<\/strong> I can't recall that, Dennis.\u00a0 I do know that he was very eager to get out of the house.\u00a0 As I said earlier, our house was like a morgue, or like a funeral home without the body in it, and so no teenage boy wants to be around that sort of thing and that atmosphere.\u00a0 So his plans to be an exchange student, although, you know, when you've lost one child, you want to wrap your arms around the other one and hang on, you don't want them out of your sight.\u00a0 And I realized, man, there is no safe place in this world.\u00a0 Denny died right under my nose.\n\t\t\t<\/p>\n\t\t\t<p>\n\t\t\t\tSo Andy's plans to go to France \u2013 that was his way of dealing with it.\u00a0 That was on the front burner now.\u00a0 He really wanted to get out of the house.\u00a0 And he's told me since then, as we've reflected on that, he's told me, he said, \"I wish that I could have been with you and mom somewhat before I had to come back and step back into it.\"\n\t\t\t<\/p>\n\t\t\t<p>\n\t\t\t\t<strong>Dennis Rainey:<\/strong> He didn't get a chance to process like you guys were processing.\n\t\t\t<\/p>\n\t\t\t<p>\n\t\t\t\t<strong>Dennis Apple:<\/strong> Exactly.\u00a0 So he had to catch up, in a way, with us.\u00a0 It was very difficult.\n\t\t\t<\/p>\n\t\t\t<p>\n\t\t\t\t<strong>Dennis Rainey:<\/strong> Speaking of helping people process, you're a pastor, you see people go through these tragedies, well, different kinds of tragedies.\u00a0 Maybe it's not the loss of a child, but could you give our listeners some \u2013 just some advice?\u00a0 Maybe some things not to say and some things to say?\u00a0 Because I have to believe right now that every listener who is hearing our broadcast knows a friend or has a friend or a family member who is going through a tragedy who needs them to step into their lives.\n\t\t\t<\/p>\n\t\t\t<p>\n\t\t\t\t<strong>Dennis Apple:<\/strong> Yeah, yeah.\u00a0 I would say this \u2013 when grief is fresh, the less said the better.\u00a0 Hugs are better than throwing Bible verses at them.\u00a0 I can't tell you how angry it made me feel when people would come up and throw the Romans 8:28 Scriptures at me, or be sure to give thanks to God in all things for what's happened to you.\u00a0 I believed those Scriptures, certainly, I had spoken on them, preached and taught, but, I tell you, at a time like that, I didn't need to hear it.\u00a0 I was so hurt, I felt so violated, and there are just no adjectives to describe it.\n\t\t\t<\/p>\n\t\t\t<p>\n\t\t\t\tAnd so I say to people, again, when grief is fresh, the less said the better.\u00a0 But I do think it's important that we acknowledge it.\u00a0 That word is really big with me \u2013 that word \"acknowledge.\"\u00a0 A phone call, a card, e-mail are kind of impersonal, of course, but going out of your way to send flowers, something to acknowledge this person's loss.\n\t\t\t<\/p>\n\t\t\t<p>\n\t\t\t\tI remember, my roommate in college, Keith, I remember calling, and he had lost a boy running into the street, a young boy, to get a ball, and years earlier, and I called him.\u00a0 I said, \"Keith, you'll never believe what's happened.\"\u00a0 I told him, and I remember what he said was so brief.\u00a0 It was in the middle of the night, and I couldn't sleep, I was just torn up. He said, \"Dennis, I'm breaking out in a cold sweat as you tell me this,\" he said, \"but I just want you to know two things \u2013 God's loved you, and I love you.\"\n\t\t\t<\/p>\n\t\t\t<p>\n\t\t\t\tAnd I thought, \"Is that all he's going to say?\"\u00a0 That's all he said, and I guess, looking back, that was probably one of the best things he could have said to me, because I felt like God had done a number on us, and I wasn't sure I was good for anything.\n\t\t\t<\/p>\n\t\t\t<p>\n\t\t\t\t<strong>Bob:<\/strong> It's interesting that revisiting that phone call brings the emotions fresh to the surface. Why?\n\t\t\t<\/p>\n\t\t\t<p>\n\t\t\t\t<strong>Dennis Apple:<\/strong> It just meant so much that, in my brokenness, Bob, he would acknowledge, he knew, and I think that's so important that someone knows, because when you're so torn like this on the inside, you want somebody else to know just how badly you have been devastated on the inside.\n\t\t\t<\/p>\n\t\t\t<p>\n\t\t\t\tBecause when we do that, it's kind of a mantra with me in grief work \u2013 I tell people, \"Sorrow shared is sorrow halved.\"\u00a0 And the opposite is true \u2013 \"Joy shared is joy doubled.\"\u00a0 Because I believe God has placed us in relationship where we certainly can hurt each other, but we can help heal one another, too.\u00a0 So when Jesus says we're to bear one another's burdens, I think that's especially true at a time like this.\u00a0 When we come alongside each other, we can help.\n\t\t\t<\/p>\n\t\t\t<p>\n\t\t\t\t<strong>Bob:<\/strong> And what is it like 17 years later as you approach February 6th, or as you approach Denny's birthday or those milestone moments \u2013 do you get to a point where you go, \"Oh, February 6th, that was last week, yeah, I just completely forgot.\"\u00a0 Has that happened?\n\t\t\t<\/p>\n\t\t\t<p>\n\t\t\t\t<strong>Dennis Apple:<\/strong> Oh, no.\u00a0 Oh, no.\u00a0 And what I've learned through the years, Bob, is as we finish \u2013 in our case, when we finish Christmas and New Year's, and we turn the corner of the year, and we start it, I know it's coming, and it's what I call \"the dread of the date.\"\u00a0 A few weeks out, before February 6th, something comes over me, and those closest to me, they know.\u00a0 I find myself in meetings, I'll find that I'm quieter, there's a subduing spirit that comes over me.\u00a0 You could tie me up, blindfold me, throw me into the deepest part of the ocean, I'd still know when February 6th is coming.\n\t\t\t<\/p>\n\t\t\t<p>\n\t\t\t\tAnd I noticed that those five and the 10-year marks have been especially hard.\u00a0 The difference between Beulah and myself, of course, she gave birth to him, on March 1, that's his birthday, just a few days later, that day is tougher for her.\u00a0 But the fact that I found him on that morning of February 6th, that's harder for me, and, I'll tell you, man, I know exactly every February 6th at 8:20 in the morning, my eyes find that clock, my watch, and I remember.\u00a0 I'll never forget it.\u00a0 I know exactly what I was doing then, and I'll never \u2013 that day will never go by me but what I'll take time to reflect upon all that happened that day.\n\t\t\t<\/p>\n\t\t\t<p>\n\t\t\t\t<strong>Bob:<\/strong> How many times have you imagined, in your own mind, a scene coming in the future when you will cross over and see him again?\n\t\t\t<\/p>\n\t\t\t<p>\n\t\t\t\t<strong>Dennis Apple:<\/strong> You're going to make me cry now, but \u2013 yeah.\u00a0 I've often thought of Paul's words there when the 12th chapter of Hebrews, after he talks about all of the great saints, and there's kind of a hall of fame of faith, you know, in the 11th chapter.\u00a0 He says, \"Now, therefore, seeing that we were encompassed about by such a great host of witnesses, let us run the face before us.\"\u00a0 I don't know what he means there, but I often thought that those that are mentioned in the 11th chapter of Hebrews and my son, they are cheering for me in the stands.\u00a0 That great host of witnesses, I think, somehow that may not be good doctrinally, but I like to think that he's there.\u00a0 And one of these days the veil will be parted, and I will be able to see him, be reunited with him.\u00a0 I can't imagine what that's going to be like.\u00a0 I'm ecstatic with the thought of being reunited with him once again.\n\t\t\t<\/p>\n\t\t\t<p>\n\t\t\t\t<strong>Dennis Rainey:<\/strong> And, Dennis, I just want to thank you for \u2013 well, for a couple of things.\u00a0 One, being on the broadcast and being so open and honest with us here and sharing your story, but I want to thank you for writing your book because the honesty that's represented here is going to be used by God in who knows how many people's lives and it's going to cross paths with people who are in the midst of deep, dark days just like you and your wife went through.\n\t\t\t<\/p>\n\t\t\t<p>\n\t\t\t\tI also want to read a passage of Scripture that we've read as we've talked about your story.\u00a0 It's 1 Peter, chapter 4, verse 19 \u2013 I think there may be one more person who needs to hear this verse \u2013 \"Therefore, let those who suffer according to God's will, entrust their souls to a faithful Creator while doing good.\"\u00a0 And, Dennis, you've not done it perfectly, but you haven't quit, and I just appreciate you being faithful and also doing good and turning your son's death and the tragedy of that into a way of ministering to many.\u00a0 Thanks.\n\t\t\t<\/p>\n\t\t\t<p>\n\t\t\t\t<strong>Dennis Apple:<\/strong> Thank you.\n\t\t\t<\/p>\n\t\t\t<p>\n\t\t\t\t<strong>Bob:<\/strong> And I'll say thanks as well, on behalf of \u2013 I know a lot of listeners who have been tuned in this week or who have contacted us to get a copy of your book, which is called \"Life After the Death of my Son.\"\u00a0 In fact, I was reading a comment online from someone who wrote and said, \"I'm a mom who has buried two children \u2013 a stillborn daughter and a 16-year-old son, and I have a ministry with bereaved mothers, and I've read a lot of books on the subject of grief in the loss of a child, but I have never read a book that hit the raw emotions and the grief journey I've walked with the kind of open honesty that you model in this book.\"\n\t\t\t<\/p>\n\t\t\t<p>\n\t\t\t\tAnd, of course, we've got copies of the book in our FamilyLife Resource Center.\u00a0 If a listener is interested in getting it for themselves or to pass along to someone who may have experienced the loss of a child, even months or years ago, just to go our website, FamilyLife.com.\u00a0 On the right side of the home page, you'll see a box that says \"Today's Broadcast,\" and if you click on the button that says \"Learn More,\" and that will take you to the area of the site where you can get more information about Dennis's book.\u00a0 You can order a copy of it from us online, if you'd like.\n\t\t\t<\/p>\n\t\t\t<p>\n\t\t\t\tAgain, the website is FamilyLife.com.\u00a0 You can also call us, if that's easier \u2013 1-800-FLTODAY is the number \u2013 1-800-358-6329 \u2013 1-800-F-as-in-family, L-as-in-life, and then the word TODAY, and we'll make arrangements when you call to have a copy of the book sent out to you.\n\t\t\t<\/p>\n\t\t\t<p>\n\t\t\t\tThen let me also encourage you to contact us as well.\u00a0 We have a CD that we'd like to send you at no cost.\u00a0 It's a conversation that we had not long ago with author and speaker, Nancy Leigh DeMoss, on the subject of forgiveness.\u00a0 And we've heard from a number of our listeners this week who have said, \"That's a real issue for me.\"\u00a0 Whether it's with a family member or a friend, someone who has hurt me deeply in the past, this CD will help you think more biblically about that subject and, hopefully, will help you come to a place where you can extend forgiveness to someone who has hurt you and bring healing and reconciliation to that relationship.\n\t\t\t<\/p>\n\t\t\t<p>\n\t\t\t\tYou can simply call and request our conversation with Nancy Leigh DeMoss on the subject of forgiveness when you call 1-800-FLTODAY, 1-800-358-6329, someone on our team will make arrangements to get a copy of the CD sent out to you, and we look forward to hearing from you.\n\t\t\t<\/p>\n\t\t\t<p>\n\t\t\t\tWe also hope you have a great weekend.\u00a0 We hope you and your family are able to worship together this weekend and hope you can join us back on Monday.\u00a0 Cindy Easley is going to join us to talk about one of the most controversial subjects in the Bible \u2013 the subject of submission in marriage.\u00a0 What does that mean?\u00a0 What does it look like?\u00a0 What is it supposed to be all about?\u00a0 We'll talk about it on Monday, and I hope you can tune in and be with us.\n\t\t\t<\/p>\n\t\t\t<p>\n\t\t\t\tI want to thank our engineer today, Keith Lynch, and our entire broadcast production team.\u00a0 On behalf of our host, Dennis Rainey, I'm Bob Lepine.\u00a0 We'll see you back Monday for another edition of FamilyLife Today. \n\t\t\t<\/p>\n\t\t\t<p>\n\t\t\t\tFamilyLife Today is a production of FamilyLife of Little Rock, Arkansas \u2013 help for today; hope for tomorrow.\u00a0\u00a0 \n\t\t\t<\/p>\n\t\t\t<p>\n\t\t\t\t_______________________________________________________________\n\t\t\t<\/p>\n\t\t\t<p>\n\t\t\t\tWe are so happy to provide these transcripts for you. 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